Wrapping up the photos for a new Campaign I shot for Maapilim - a super fine, beautiful lifestyle & grooming brand. I love working with like-minded brands. It just makes the creative process so much easier and together, we can take it to the next level.
I came to the world as a female and grew up like one until the age of 3. That is when I refused to wear dresses and my parents were ok with it.
I never cared much for gender definitions. I dresses as a boy & played with both boys and girls. I felt like any other boy and luckily, my friends accepted me for who I was. However, I was an introvert and would not show my emotions to the rest of the world. It would usually end up by crying.
Around the age of 12, puberty started showing its first signs. I wasn’t happy with the physical and emotional changes I was experiencing. It felt as if I was hit by a heavy hammer and I basically felt as if my own body was cheating on me. My head felt disconnected from the rest of my body and questions started to surface that I was not yet ready to confront with.
I came out at the age of 17 as a lesbian. But that wasn’t “it” for me. I did not grant me the sense of freedom I was hoping it would. The fantasy of one day, becoming a man kept lingering in my head. That is when I started researching online and found a whole world of information from like-minded individuals. I was not alone.
It’s hard to understand what it really means to be transgender. It’s to realize that your little girl wants to be a boy, and my parents decision to support me through the process is not a decision all parents are able to stick with. Their support helped me build my confidence and go through all the changes I was experiencing. Two weeks after starting high school, I told my class mates about my story. I didn’t want it to be a theme for gossip and hear whispers behind my back. I want them to know that I am proud of who I am."
The first time I thought I wanted to be a boy was when I was 8 years old. Words like “gender” or “trans” were still really far from my understanding, but I just KNEW it would have been better if I was born as a male.
I fell in love for the first time when I was 14, with a girl. I then started wondering wether I was straight or lesbian. I never thought about bi-sexuality, as I was never attracted to men. I just saw myself as a tomboy, although at the back of mind, I started thinking maybe I was trans.
So I cut my hair, and that little action made a huge difference. I suddenly realized I was gender-queer. Half boy, half girl. Sometimes just boy, sometimes just girl. Sometimes both. Sometime non. I played, I thought, I learned.
I’m about to join the army, who recognized me as transgender soldier and will begin my hormone treatment soon.
I really hope that the world will move forward with the whole human rights issues, and especially for LGBT’s, that we will receive the recognition and protection we deserve, just like anyone else. Suicide rates among the transgender community are 4 times higher than the rest of the world.
The uncanny series
Enroute between London & NYC.
This was taken somewhere above Canada. Always puts me in perspective.
Canon 5D IV + 85mm
A messy rough-cut from an ongoing documentary i'm filming.
This is Gilbert, he's my grandfather.
Landed in France after a week in Berlin.
Very excited to start a new and very personal project, something i've never tried before.
More details when the time is right.
back when i was starting, and looking for magic. I found it.